100 Days of Commuting

After having week off – away from London and away from work. I was full of renewed energy and lots of ideas.  My ideas were mainly for the creativity project I am working on at work.  Unfortunately, the energy quickly drained upon entering the office.  This week has been a complete drag.  I feel incredibly demotivated.

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Rush hour in London Waterloo station

My commute is long and unyielding. London is busy – full of rude people, all in a rush to get somewhere.  Every week I spend at least 15 hours commuting; most weeks (especially when school is in term) it’s closer to 17.5 hours.  This equates to at least 60 hours per month and a whopping 660 hours per year (based on 11 months – I’ve kindly given myself a month off, aren’t I lucky?).  Scarily this works out as 94 working days! 94! This might as well be 100!

100 Days of Commuting

What could I spend 100 days doing? There are a lot of things I could be doing: pursuing my interests for a start.  I used to do a lot of photography but it took over my life, well truth be told Instagram took over my life. I was also faced with internal conflict about whether photography should be edited and whether I should be digitally enhancing my photos.  The result was I stopped.  I’ve had some time to settle the internal argument and I am ok with the editing – I see my photography as an art now so the editing process is about creating a particular look.   I want to make a return to it but not on Instagram.   I just need to find the time.  I think I may undertake an iphonography project first – take a photo everyday.  See where this takes me.

I enjoy water sports but my current lifestyle does not cater for it.  I could be out kayaking and enjoying the river. Last week I went canoeing on the Norfolk Broads, it was so peaceful and hundreds of miles away from the hustle and bustle of this crazy city.  Even the coastal resort of Great Yarmouth was an amazing break.  I love being close to the sea and would love to live on the coast.

It’s so important to take time out to reconnect, however this makes returning to work incredibly hard.

On Monday, my first day back at work, my bus got caught in traffic, I therefore missed my train and thus I arrived at work later than I’d planned. To top things off, it was pouring down with rain.  My renewed energy had probably drained out of me before I even arrived at work.

Reconnect and Remember

It was a combination of all these things that reminded me why I am planning my big escape.  I need a change in lifestyle. I need to reclaim my time. I need to stop commuting. Reminders are important otherwise we easily lose track of what we are doing and why, and the motivation evaporates.

I am planning to escape because I want to live my life on my terms.  Thankfully there is a long weekend approaching, time to invest in Project Escape.

Destination: Unknown

So I’ve finally got round to starting the blog.  In my head, I have already written at least three posts but time has been scarce and I’ve had a lot of things to do.

I’ve decided 2016 will be a year of massive change for me career wise.  I have felt stuck for a while, but after returning from a holiday to North Sulawesi, Indonesia earlier this year, and suffering from some terrible post holiday blues, I felt I really needed to act.

It’s not that I hate my job, it’s just I feel underwhelmed by it. I feel constricted in my current organisation and I feel like I am wasting my life there. Over the past year I have done a lot of self study on innovation in order to help me in my role but I feel like I am developing at a pace that is too fast for my employer and I feel like I have outgrown the organisation.

I work for a charity and ultimately I am a fundraiser. Although over the last year I have been working on designing and developing fundraising products as opposed to actually delivering campaigns. I enjoy the type of role I do, but I feel I am in the wrong place for it. Besides, I no longer want to be a fundraiser.  I want to help people and communities and actually seeing the direct impact of the work I do.

Being a goal oriented person, I’ve always found that I am at my happiest when I am striving to achieve something.  I don’t operate well when I am drifting; I feel completely lost and without purpose. Making the decision to change my career has provided me with a renewed focus, but it’s a huge step and I can’t say I’m not scared.

There are a lot of unknowns.  The biggest being I don’t really know where I am heading. I have a few ideas but nothing concrete and that is frightening.  How can I possibly quit a job to chase an unknown?

Thankfully for me, I have already taken some steps to validate I’m making the correct decision.  I’ll write more about this soon but for now, I have made a choice and I’m focused on sticking to it.  I want to live a life that I will find more fulfilling. One that I can be proud of. I know myself well enough to trust that I will make it work.

Onwards and upwards to destination: unknown.  Anyone fancy coming along for the ride?